I traveled the universe searching for a home
Sat in crowded places feeling so alone
Then suddenly one night you came to me
Touched my soul, said you would set me free

Seduced by your words, your voice, your poetry
I followed as you guided me into a virtual reality
Accepting your promises of eternity, of forever and a day
Allowing you to soothe my mind and teach me once again to play

And though trust has never come easy to me
I longed to believe when you said love would set me free
I yearned for someone to listen as I spoke, longed for someone to trust
For I was lost and desolate in a solitary life of stone and dust

Somehow you sensed the longing in my soul, heard the despair in my voice
Listened and helped me believe there was a choice
And when I cried out in fear in the dark of night
You held and rocked me gently in your mind as you took away my fright

Your words, your presence soothed me
 and the feelings within would not be denied
As kindred souls in passionate and loving encounters 
we cooled the fire inside
Becoming lost together in that eternal sanctuary of time and space
Even knowing that someday the end we would have to face

I kissed you with passion and desire, knowing we would never be
Knowing that even though I saw, I still did not see
That you would be mine to have but not to hold
And no matter the loving, the longing, the need, I would alone grow old

Now looking in the mirror I face the bitter realization
That I have come full circle in this situation
And must now accept you were a lesson I had to learn
and that I was a fortress that you had to burn

Though all these feelings were so real at the time
And in my heart I believed that I was yours and you were mine
I knew we were never meant to be and if ever again I am to feel
This I must accept so I can move on and begin to heal

As I travel through this hell of my own creation
Searching for my soul and seeking my own salvation
I must face the bitter truth that like a moth drawn to a flame
There is no one else, there is only me to blame

Pain is a warning that something’s wrong
And I pray to heaven that it wont be long
For I have no more strength to try
And I yearn for the power to say goodbye

I yearn for the power to say goodbye to what will never be
To recover my soul and set it free
To let the hurt inside me die
As I gather within the power of goodbye

And though my mind and soul are filled with fears
And I have cried a million tears
The time has come to say goodbye
To heal my heart, my mind, my soul and learn again to fly

For freedom only comes in letting go
Though how I will do this, I just don't know
So I tell myself that you were just a dream
And things of this world are never what they seem

Then seeking the comfort of laughter that comes after pain
I search for the starlight that follows the rain
And say your name softly for I know this is right
As I whisper "goodbye" on this warm summer night.

Copyright©1998 Vampyra.